Tue 13 Feb 2024 05:56:30 GMT
I’ve given up on my Coursera course for PGM’s for now. What the hell am I interested in? What kind of problems do I want to help solve. I thought I could do my job w/o thinking too much but I’m just finding that difficult. I know its just a matter of creating meaning internally.
What might the problem be:
- solving the worlds most important problem myself: A slightly grandizing way to put it but generally, its not that I feel I’m wasted toiling at something and that I need to be focused on the worlds most important problem. I feel I can accept making contribution to problems I care about.
- I’m not very good at my job: the growth mindset is when you’re constantly learning and things always feel a bit difficult. I’m a proponent of this and aware of its necessity in getting better. It’s logical then to assume that just effort and experience is all I need to become a good software engineer. That, and patience.
- I don’t want to become a software engineer: The career track for a software engineer is kind of boring to me. But at times it can feel exciting. The end goal is getting good at processes more so than code (although thats a component). Processes are super important in creating business value (both quality and quantity) consistently. It’s the fluctuating notion of the business value being created that might be intermittent for me.
- I’m an emotional creature: theres the strong chance that I’m being driven by my emotions and hormones (well, it’s more of a tautology) in terms of my decision making. This makes me feel somewhat hopeless that any decision I make is the right one.
- I struggle with the lack of tangibility of my work: It just seems so pointless to me at times. Like, its some sort of weird emergent phenomenon we humans have created to make ourselves busy.
What could help?
- I’ve tried (a small bit) to start producing what I think I want. I’m not really producing enough at all. In fact, I’m producing nothing.
- Just fucking commit to something and do it. Why’s that so hard?
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