Act → Inspiration → Motivation. It’s actually a circle. I need to start taking actions for motivation to come and to get that feedback. With work, I need to break down my tasks into smaller chunks that I can do to see progress.
I need to write those posts I think I can write. I need to contemplate some questions on the energy front (decision making under uncertainty?).
It’s a bit de moralising that my struggles are just very simple mechanisms of dopamine, but I can’t take it personally, I need to fight against it. I can’t be afraid of my thoughts, they don’t control me nor I them, I can choose my response even though its difficult.
I need to start hanging posters or quotes up or something. There has to be a fearlessness to ground our subjectivety in the objective. This is what I like about Metzinger and consciousness.
The trouble with optionality
https://www.thecrimson.com/article/2017/5/25/desai-commencement-ed/ Kierkegaard may be referring to optionality and the addiction of it.
The shortest distance between two points is reliably a straight line. If your dreams are apparent to you, pursue them. Creating optionality and buying lottery tickets are not way stations on the road to pursuing your dreamy outcomes. They are dangerous diversions that will change you.