20/02/23 16:20:15
@daily
Speculative futures.
Getting tactility to our possible futures.
The future energy lab
- Today was not a good day. Lot of anxiety and verging on spiralling into what, I don’t know. Can be kind of scary sometimes. Distracting myself with interesting things helps but at the moment I’ve to study non interesting things.
- Just a bad day I suppose, good to practice dealing with it, that’s the approach I tried to take anyways, wasn’t perfect but did something.
- I think it didn’t help that I pushed myself hard last week, while not getting much sleep. I think it can kind of accumulate.
- I feel so delicate sometimes. I have a tendency to self sabotage also.
- Life’s not easy I suppose, everyone struggles, I shouldn’t be ashamed by it.
- I should have stayed home for another night. I just get this ball of anxiety and need to distract myself from it.
- I think maybe reminding myself of what I’m thankful for and trying to bring myself back to earth. Easier said than done.
- I’m also looking for some form of penance or something. Especially with food, I feel if I fuck up and eat the wrong thing, or too much, I’ve to ‘pay’ for it somehow, even when it’s not even worth dwelling on. To be honest, the less I dwelt on it probably the better.